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Tue, 10 Feb 2009 18:43:02 GMT

I had a MRI scan today. I don't know what i was really expecting other than a large tunnely object. I knew it's a very powerful magent and would be noisey but it was a lot tighter and noiser than I'd expected. It was a little worse than I expected as I had to have a big needle/tube in my arm and dye inserted through my vein half way through. I had to have this due to the scarr tissue they have found on my liver. They have no idea what it is - but it's not a tumour.. apparently. They aren't 100% sure what it is, if the MRI doesn't give a diagnosis then I will have to have key hole surgery. It doesn't cause me any pain (they found it during ultrasound on my bowel) and i possibly could of been born with it - but no point worrying about it until I know.

Lanzarote was nice. It wasn't the best weather - The canary islands have had a really bad winter. The worst one in 35 years!!! A lot of rain it's all very green over there. But we did have a bit of sunshine, it only rained for 2 days and we went to visit the volcanoes, Caves and I went on a ACTUAL submarine on Saturday. Interesting experiences and Me and Jay got on great as we always do and had a really good time together. Now it's horrible sleeping apart again and both being back to work. He said some pretty serious stuff to me whilst over there, but watch this space - that's all i'm going to say!!!!!

It's nearing our two year anniversairy!!! where the fuck have two years gone? Jesus, and I'm 22 in April..... I have been talking to some of you LJ girls since I was like 14/15. That's pretty scary.

Weather wasn't great but had a fabulous time...

When we arrived, on the coach

Swimming pool :)

Look, some sunshine!

Second Day, on Fred (i named him) the camel. We both found it a hilarious experience.

Me, on the first day after only two hours sleep. I know wearing a bra wasn't cool, but my nipples were pretty clear through that top! haha

Me and Jay - and his face fungus. URGH!

Amazing view of an island not far away.

Self timer - i love this picture though, we both look browner!

.I know your probably all bored now, but the rest are on my facebook album http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=77646&id=603161422

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 18:51:48 GMT

Oh dear...

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=RJlPEHL85Ig

This has just ruined the song for me!! haha!!! Hilarious :)

x

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 10:20:13 GMT

It always seems to be this time of year when things go wrong for me. Look back at 2006, This is the exact date I lost my best lad friend Eddie. Two years ago today. How fast does time go? I admit the pain has got easier but i still think about him everyday and miss him. This time though a little less painful I am just unemployed but I have debts. I have applied for so many jobs and I do have my first interview this week but I do find it really depressing. I can't even drive too far cuz I have no money for petrol and I have no money to park anywhere.

In all fairness jay has put petrol in my car but I don't want him to have to do that. It's not fair - I'm so lucky to have someone who is helping me as my parents went bankrupt in june so therefore they struggle themselves. I'm also now on the dole! but I don't think i'll get any money until next week.

Last week after returning home from holiday I went into town and handed out CV's and got our local job papers and sent off loads of applications and looked on websites so I am trying. I have been going out trying to MAKE it happen but some of the closing dates aren't till this week and I just can't wait because i need money NOW!! It's so boring having no money.

God, there's only so much Jeremy Kyle I can watch.

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 12:42:23 GMT

I've just had two of the best days off work i've ever had. It was Jays birthday on wednesday (He's 20 now, aww my little toy boy!) even though I'm only a year older than him.

I got him a handmade cake made from a local handmade chocolate shop. It's lush. In the shape of a built up car because thats what he's into. it cost me £35 but it's seriously the best cake ive ever tasted.

We had thursday & friday off work and Thursday we went to the seaside (SKEGVEGAS) for the day. I hate that place, but it's ok for a day. Not a whole lot to do there and it's chav-central. Then Friday we went to Drayton manor with his mum & her partner Ben. Jay's mum isn't your usual "mumsy" type - she smokes weed, swears worse than me & jay put together and gets pissed up a lot. she's nice enough though, he didn't let me meet her until we were together for 6months or so as he didn't want me to judge him on her. He's nothing like her.

She does annoy me though - she never rings/texts him. She never makes the effort to come and see him, we always have to go over to her - only about once a month but still, i'd never do that to my child. Bless him. We had a BRILLIANT day though and a right laugh.

Normally i'd go to Alton towers for theme park entertainment but actually, Drayton manor is better. Queue's were no longer than 10minutes and some scary-ass rides there.

oh, and not to mention THOMAS LAND!

otherwise, I'm skint & my parents are finding out this week whether or not we loose the house or not etc. Tough times - I'm seriously perky throughout it all so far. Perhaps it hasn't hit me yet.

I feel ready to fly the nest now though. Soon as i get my financial situation sorted we'll buy a place. :)

Sun, 25 May 2008 09:19:29 GMT

I'm back. I basically deleted my old journal because.. Well, sometimes it's nice to star fresh & basically I never updated it much anyway.

So, since I've been away I have celebrated my 21st Birthday which was actually quite a diaster. Basically there was a huge family arguement between my grand-mother and my auntie which resulted in me crying myself to sleep. On my 21st birthday. Also a lot of "Friends" let me down for my big night out.. due to uni exams etc, fair enough. So not really the best birthday i've ever had but then again birthdays aren't the same as you get old. Jay had a few days off with me though & we went to woburn safari park.. he bought me a white gold diamond ring (not engagement before you ask!!) and he just made it all better for me.

My new job is going OK so far although I have to constantly take bitchy phonecalls off customers. The company has a real bad reputation cuz of the whole "Cash back" deal with mobile phones & them not receiving their money back. Some days it's so hard to be nice to everyone all day and I come home in a foul mood because I just get people swearing and patronising me on the phone all day. It's definately not somewhere I'm going to spend 20 years at but it'll do for now - the money isn't bad so thats sort of whats helping me put up with it.

Jay and I are still good. Very good infact. We have been completely sad and played the Wii most of the weekend and now we both have terrible arm ache!!!

And I know my entries won't be complete without a period update.. ha ha!!! Contraceptive Implant is still in my arm and still causing me to bleed literally constantly. In nearly 3 months I've only had two full weeks blood free - It's horrible and I definately recommend NOT trying it. I'm in talks at the moment to have it removed as the cramps I've been getting are unbareable and constantly high off painkillers. My poor body needs a break..

Oh, and i'm now a brunette :) Much better..